jamais vu

04 August, 2014



I have so much to say here, and I don't know how. I feel like I'm floating through life right now in a surreal state, and nothing is familiar to me, even though it should be. It's the opposite of déjà vu, and it's called jamais vu.

The thing is, life is full of bends and turns, and sometimes they're planned, and sometimes they're unexpected, and sometimes, if you're lucky like me, they're both. Except, sometimes, usually late at nite, when I'm alone, I don't feel so lucky, and I start to second guess all of the choices I'm making.

I've crossed a lot of lines, and hurt a couple of people, probably disappointed even more, and I feel guilty because I'm a mom, and that's what we do.

So, in a week I move into a whole new chapter, and I'm crossing my fingers that it comes with less run on sentences.

10 comments:

yours truly, melissa said...

Thinking about you this week. Hope your transition goes smoothly and more than well.

Hollie Nickolls said...

Aww, thank you. Thinking of you too, Melissa!!

Inge said...

I hope this week goes by quickly. I always think it's best to get these sorts of things done, so you can't fill your head with what-ifs anymore and can deal with things that are actually happening. Hope all goes well!

Hollie Nickolls said...

Inge - I agree. I'm ready for it all to be over with.

A Crimson Kiss said...

To a smooth move and a new place–I think you're ready to put your feet on the ground. Thinking of you.

MeghanTopjian said...

<3

Stephanie said...

I feel like change always brings out my worries, and guilt about the past, even when those changes are good. It's like my mind's way of sabotaging happy moments. I hope your moments are sabotage free and the next few weeks bring lots of happiness to you and your family.

Matthew Pike said...

have you moved now Hollie?

Buckets & Spades

Katrina Sophia said...

Gorgeous imagery!

Katrina Sophia

Mary said...

I've been thinking about you. Hope you're doing well and that the move went smoothly and that you're able to start settling in. Take care - Mary